Java Trip Pt 2

This is the continuity of my last post...but it took me over 2 months to write it...hahaha...

okay, back to the title...the last post was that we took a rest after day 1 of Java Trip...

Day 2:

- woke up early in the morning *well, this is more like I was the one who couldn't sleep because of this disorder I have (hard to sleep in a new place)*...since I'd woke up and adek also had, I decided it's time to disturb boyfee beauty sleep..hihi..and turned out he also couldn't sleep well the entire night, because he didn't bring any short with him..so he'd to sleep with his jeans on...

- had to take quick shower since everybody had been waiting for us...hahaha...even worse, his sister rang our room and showed up in front of our door with her baby...OMG...shame on you, Put * I hadn't shower or anything..in fact, I was just woke up when his sister went to our room*

- quick breakfast, since we had to start moving early...we checked out from the hotel, I think around 10am...and again, we went with different cars (my fams and his fams) because we were going to different places...from the hotel, we went to the Keraton (where the King of Jogja, Hamengku Buwono has been living for quite some time)...one thing that I admire from all the workers there...they are very humble and respect to their King, which is something rare that you could find nowadays...

- I think, it took us quite sometime wandering around the Keraton..well, forgotten to tell that we didn't come to Keraton by car because they said it's too hard to find a parking space, but we took Beca..mito *mama* and pito *papa* was in a separate Beca because it was already too crowded..and adek, boyfee and I were in separate Beca...we had to get back to the car and we took Delman *a wooden car pulled by horse*..poor that horse cos he had to pull the car with the 7 of us *pito = 2, mito = 1.5, me = 1.5, adek = 1, boyfee = 1*..and even worse, the horse was pregnant...be strong there horsie..

- it was already lunch time when we were done with our lil adventure in Keraton..so, it was the time for us to move to our next destination, which was Solo ..still part of Central of Java..but categorized as different province than Jogja and Semarang..

- we stopped at Ayam Goreng Suherti for lunch..nothing that special about the food...it was just fried chicken with some kremes..the only thing that I like was the kremes...the sambal was also not that great *or maybe it was just my crazy tounge ya? hmm..*

- it took us 2.5 hours from Jogja to Solo..it was really tiring just sitting inside the car and not moved at all..shouldn't complain tho...boyfee had to go thru something worse than me...he'd stay awake because the driver was really slordig..

- arrived in Solo pretty late and we went straight to check in to Hotel Sahid Solo...for me, there's nothing special about this hotel, since everything is pretty standard for a three star hotel...since we'd arrived pretty late in the hotel, we decided to take some rest...after magrib, we went out for the dinner...

- sorry to tell, but I forgotten the name of the restaurant...but we went to the city centre of Solo that evening...the atmosphere of the restaurant was very very romantic...I even whispered to boyfee, if only it was only the two of us there and we were on our honeymoon trip...hmmmm...couldn't imagine...hahaha...

- went to the hotel pretty late, and I wasn't feeling well that night, so I went to bed quite early while boyfee watched football (it was during the World Cup Season)...adek and I woke up in the morning, took a shower, and all of us (my fams and his fams) had breakfast together...not so long after that, we had to pack again and checked out from the hotel agaiiiinnn...yes, again...for our next trip...

- my judgement: the food was okay, nothing special...and overall of the restaurant, hotel restaurant and in Solo was average..

to be continued..

Java Trip Pt 1

wooowww...it's been more than 7 months since the last time I opened this blog..my my...

well...a lot of things happened since the last time I did some writings here...hope I can conclude everything in a brief..

do you remember about my writings about bali or jogja? Well, the decision was Jogja. We went there (we as for my parents, boyfee's family, and myself) for 5 days and 4 nights. Though, we didn't stay the whole time in Jogja. We had our little-Central of Java-trip. Why? Because of this:

Day 1:

- flight from KLIA was 9.10am and we arrived at 10.40WIB, flew by MAS *served meals: rice with prawns, cakes, ferrero roche, hot tea, orange juice, Haagen Dasz* --> Satisfied!

- met boyfee, adek after got stuck in the imigration *it's ridiculous since they only have 2 PIC in the international arrival and waiting for the luggage is also annoying since the space is too small*

- checked-in to the hotel: Grand Quality Hotel, rate Rp490,000 nett (incl. breakfast), the location is very close to the international airport of Jogja (Adisucipto), but quite far from the city centre (Malioboro, about 20 minutes of driving), but overall, it is a good hotel

- went to Malioboro, which is absolutely heaven for a shopper. you can get cheap and unique things. I almost lost my mind in that place. everything is soo cheap and the best thing for a girl is to buy the things after you bargain for 1/3 of the price. that place is full with batik. my papa is a local fruit lover. he found a man selling salak and he bought 2kg, and half of it was just for him.

- got a little bit hungry and decided that it's over for the trip to Malioboro and time for food hunting. the specialty food in Jogja is Gudeg. I called a good friend of mine who lives in Jogja. She recommended a place. well, the restaurant is located near MMUGM, and nothing fancy about the restaurant. BUT, the food (Gudeg) is absolutely delicious, eventhough for someone like me whose not a big fan of sweet food.

- went back to the hotel, since it was almost dark and we hadn't pray and we had to get ready for the 'family meeting'. after we took a rest for a while (shower, took a nap, etc), we went out to the lobby. It was raining heavily outside, so we had to stay in the hotel. I met his parents in the corridor of our floor. My parents went to the lobby long before we did, because the hotel had a show for Sinden with Gamelan.

- had to eat in the hotel's restaurant since it was raining. the food was not that good and it was expensive *i think it's standard price for 4-star hotels*. but the purpose of the meeting was not the food but the 'meeting' itself.

- met a good friend of mine that i haven't met for over 5 years. had a great talk and laugh with her, together with each other's boyfee.

- it was almost 11WIB and it was the time to get some rest.

Will continue writing about the next days...

my birthday present

i had my 24th birthday yesterday..got a unforgettable present from boyfee..

on saturday, just after he woke up, he called me..i also just woke up from my nap..then he said, he has something to tell me..i was listening unpatiently..don't know why..I was a bit selfish at that time because it's just the way he is when talking to people, which is veryyyyyy slow..and I'm the opposite of him..I speak fast, I like to explain things in fast pace..don't know why or how..but I made him mad..

soo..at at the end, we were fighting over stupid things..ach..hate it..until 11 at night there was still no sign of us calming down..i mean i've tried but i hurt him that bad that made him sooo angry to me..i decided to go to bed instead of keep on fighting with him..i even ignore a guy that i like once..just don't care about him anymore..

i set my alarm at 00.00 to wish myself happy birthday..since i know, that not many would even remember my birthday..hehe..but i couldn't sleep..i was crying even since before i decided to went to bed, which was 11 something..and i kept on crying and i could feel that my eyes are burning because of crying..then, just 8 minutes before 12, boyfee called..still, he was mad..his tone was a bit higher than usual, and i just kept quite, didn't want to say anything to him..then my alarm start snoozing..i said, could you hold on? and then i wished myself while crying because i was sad he didn't say anything..after about a minutes, his tone was soften..but i was still crying and praying..then after about 4 minutes ignoring him, i told him that i was wishing myself happy birthday...then, in whisper he told me he wanted to wish me happy birthday but he was ashamed to himself for continuing our fight on my birthday..then, not so long after that, he was crying *yes, indeed, boyfee is quite sensitive when it comes to me and his family*..

it became i was the one who was calming him down..hihi..it was funny tho..then after he calmed, we started to talk and we apologize for being jerks to each other..soon after that, we started using webcam..and start to say how much we love each other..haha..funny..very funny..
but i do have a conclusion...the fact is that we are very much in love to each other..but sometimes, we are quite selfish and spoiled..and that's most of the reasons why we fight..

i love him..and this is how i feel..

my day starts with ANGER!!

Just after I got out from the door of my parent's house, I got scold by my dad. He complained about my sandals being there, near the door. He said, just throw that one away. When it comes to somebody's property he wants everybody to throw everything away. But when it comes to his, nobody should complain.

I thought it was gonna be over. I was wrong. I was soooooooooooo wrong. He continued to scold me about my room. He said my room is bloody messy that nobody wants to see it. I know. It's his house, and I'm just freeload there. But it was his idea in the first place to call me back here and to live with him. I was pretty happy when I was in Jakarta. I almost took over my life. But they called me back and to live back with them. He doesn't know that I'm sooo f***ing stress to live there. To follow their rules, to hear them nagging all the time. For God Sake, I'm f***ing 24 years old and I have NO control over my life. How pathetic my life is??!! But can I say that? NO WAY!! They won't know what happen in my life because I keep my secret pretty tight. I think, they still think that I'm still the happy girl who likes to talk. They don't know that my depression is getting worse every now and then. Yes, you can call me a PRETENDER!!

I haven't mention anything about the tension when I started talking about the proposal from my boyfee's fam. The first time we ever talked about it, they've started to control things. I know that boyfee's fam doesn't like to be controlled. I know my mom, she wants everything going as she wished. I'm gonna be married for once in a lifetime. And she wants to make as SIMPLE as possible. FINE!!! why don't we all just go to the cityhall and get married there?!! it won't cost anything, rite??!! I've mentioned to boyfee that if the married things getting worse, just drop it and forget about everything. I'll break up with him and just start thinking about my life and pleasure. I don't wanna get married until I don't know when. And when they ask me why..BOOM!! I'm gonna blame for everything.

I think, I have all the anger inside me that never got the chance to go out. Because I don't know how to let it out. *I'm crying and shaking while writing this blog..that's how angry I am to everything*

Btw, last night, we were watching the '15 Hollywood most tragical death' if I'm not mistaken. I never knew about most of the tragic death of the Hollywood artist. But I know now that it's hurtful and frustrating when you can't get your anger out. It will consume you slowly. I was thinking to start smoking, but still haven't got the guts to do it yet. Maybe after they screw up everything, I will also start screwing my life. I mean, I'm just helping to finish what they started, rite??!!

Bali or Jogja?

The fight the other day was just one huge misunderstanding between us. I mean, I'm a girl who needs to be pampered once in a while and he's just forgot to do that sometimes. but on the other hand, because of my necessity of getting pampered, I could be very selfish. Forgive me dear, I'm just being a human. Hope you'll still love me for the way I am.

Right now, I'm planning for a vacation to Bali. Heard from a friend of mine, that it's better to stay in the area of Seminyak instead of Kuta because it's gonna be too crowded. Been surfing websites for Bali's accomodation from a week ago. Something interesting came up. A villa with 2 bedrooms in Seminyak area costs about $100 per night. Okay, it's not as cheap as a 3-stars hotel, but it's a villa. You have your own veranda, living room and kitchen over there. It's nicer than staying in 3x4 room, rite?!

The idea behind the holiday to Bali is because we'll be celebrating my parents 25th anniversary, since I'll be 24 in 6 days. And because I'm working now, and my lil brother also has his own small income, we thought it might be a good idea to spend some money for our own parents. BUT, something came up. The boyfee told me that he's told his parents about 'the first meeting' between two families. The event probably would take place somwhere around July or August and as my mom requested, she wants us to meet in Jogja because none of us has ever been there.

I hope I could do both, but everything is still very vague. Can't tell which one is for sure. But I will write in here when the decision's made. And I will also post the pictures I'll take with my lovely dEooo a.k.a. d3000 ;)

I'm the second and work is the first..

Last night, before went to bed, I text the boyfee..Just an ordinary text, saying that I'm going to bed. He sent me two text yesterday, one was saying that he's very busy with work. For so many times, I have to understand that, including yesterday. The other one was saying that he wants to chat with me this morning.

I waited patiently until he got up from bed. Then he sent me a text, saying he's having a headache, so he wants to excuse himself from chatting with me. Great. Just great. When it comes to work, he would never excuse himself. Even when he's ill, he'd go to work.

Isn't it clear that I'm the second and work is the first thing in his life?

We're just fighting over the things I'm writing now. Apparently, I am the one who has to understand with his actions. Probably my understanding for everything all this time is not enough, and I doubt that it will ever be enough.

Entree

I don't know what to think..what to say..and what to feel..

the feeling is too complex to be described..and so is the situation that happens in my life..

My purpose of creating this blog is to share my story..not to show-off to people about my life..in fact, there's nothing to show-off about my life..I'm just an ordinary person lives in an ordinary world..surrounded by unbelievably extraordinary people..